happy birthday love

I want to say I love you on your birthday,Though love is something you don't want from me.Things didn't go so well when I last said it,And so I'll keep it silent in my heart. But how the words reverberate within me!A song that I must struggle not to sing,A music I must dance to without motion,A poem that I must never read aloud. Your wishes are a wall I would not scale,Yet won't abandon, loathe to leave behind.I cannot have, and cannot bear to lose you,And so I send you this in my despair.