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Thursday, September 29, 2011

I'm almost there then,my brother started to puke..

Now its 7.23am (30.9.2011)friday,im suppose to be in school by this time..
but im home because my lil bro isaac started to puke in the car about a minute before i could arrive school..
i even greeted my class the teacher from the car before my mum drove the car next to the school foyer..
my mum asked me if its ok if i skip school today and take care of isaac..i was like nooooooo!! i wana take my Bm exam papers today! huh...so yeah,i agree,isaac cried after he puke..so sad XD
in a few hours more the clinic is gona be open,so yeah..im homeschooled today..jamming sessions in class with my buddies is cancelled because im not there with my guitar..don't be mad peeps..

palakmakbapak he's loving it!

Monday, September 26, 2011

A SMILE..


A smile costs nothing, but gives much.
It enriches those who receive, without making poorer those who give.
It takes a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever.
None is so rich or mighty that he can get along without it, and none is so poor, but that he can be made rich by it.
A smile creates happiness in the home, fosters good will in business, and is the countersign of friendship.
It brings rest to the weary, cheer to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, and it is nature’s best antidote for trouble.
Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone, until it is given away.
Some people are too tired to give you a smile;
Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give.

3D Glasses

Using this *glasses* while watching the movie is very fun*
but then,there's this part when scene in the movie shows ashes,and you think its disturbing your view..its
nice..expensive..and disturbing..3D GLASSES!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Mother taught us

Things My Mother Taught Me

My Mother taught me LOGIC..."If you fall off that swing and break your neck, you can't go to the store with me."

My Mother taught me MEDICINE..."If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they're going to freeze that way."

My Mother taught me TO THINK AHEAD..."If you don't pass your spelling test, you'll never get a good job!"

My Mother taught me ESP..."Put your sweater on; don't you think that I know when you're cold?"

My Mother taught me TO MEET A CHALLENGE..."What were you thinking? Answer me when I talk to you...Don't talk back to me!"

My Mother taught me HUMOR..."When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

My Mother taught me how to BECOME AN ADULT..."If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up.

My mother taught me about GENETICS..."You are just like your father!"

My mother taught me about my ROOTS..."Do you think you were born in a barn?"

My mother taught me about the WISDOM of AGE..."When you get to be my age, you will understand."

My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION..."Just wait until your father gets home."

My mother taught me about RECEIVING...You are going to get it when we get home.

and my all time favorite thing - JUSTICE..."One day you will have kids, and I hope they turn out just like YOU..then you'll see what it's like." 

Sunday, July 3, 2011

hampa












 




 I finally have this feeling to this friend of mine..

we meet almost every night for tuition..
i thought that maybe we might be together
because we were close..
today i just knew after looking at his FB photos
looks like he have a GF,huh.....=.=
its so hard to find a guy like him nowdays,but
i wonder..

Monday, June 20, 2011

#$%^&*()_+



for now,i dont need you,but i still miss and love you rrf <3
man,what have i done? and what did i get myself into?
anna2~

ntah~

ko mowk jtuh cinta nak?
cuba try jatuh tangga lowk..nyaman sik?
best sik?pham2 la..blom gik asa bila sdh putus cinta,lgi sedap dri jtuh tangga..
stay away from me!haha! =.= mood paloi~


Saturday, June 18, 2011

everything turns bad when someone who's really close to you,hurt you most

YESTERDAY,by 7am i was already in school,and it was a saturday,normally school is close unless there's any school activity,like always i'll wait for my best buddy Claudia,and she was late as always,she arrived 1 hour 30 minutes later,...later after that we finish our kadet pertahanan awam practice.we went to the store across our school to buy breakfast,after having breakfast we went and change our uniform to our t-shirts and jeans,we then walk to the bus station with two of our other friends that is Jeremy and Anne.
the bus arrive as soon as we just arrive.When we reach our destination we had our lunch.so skip the other boring stories.dash3~~~
we went to the movies,by that time Anne went to her mother's office so its just me,claudia and jeremy
and that time,i planned it for a week to watch Green Latern and Super 8,but appreantly Claudia didnt wana watch it,but Jeremy and i really wanted to.so in order to not make her sulk and show her sour face,i gave up,but i was really pissed off,so was Jeremy.After buying the ticket we still have another 2 hours to wait,so we went for bowling.and after bowling we accompany claudia to buy lunch at KFC.we did have lunch before but then she went hungry again~
the movie started,it was a romance malay movie,which i dont really fancy watching because i fancy english filems~after the movie ended,me and Jeremy wanted to watch Green Lantern,but then the movie is at 7.i was so pissed!damn it! the worse thing is Claudia laughed at us and said padan muka?i was like,hey3,i joined u watch ur stupid malay movie and i didnt get to watch the movie i really wanted to watch and have to wait one week for it and u just simply laugh?she told me she wanted to go home,but the thing is,she's going home with me,and i wanted to wait till 7 for the movie.i begged her to stay and accompany me,but no!she insists of going home!fuck!i look away and ignore her,took my phone,called my mum to ask my bro to pick me up.after that without a word,i went away from them and waited for the lift,went in and out and walk ahead of them!Jeremy was quiet,he didnt know what to do,he felt the tense i was having with claudia.we went to waterfront and sat next to the stairs to wait for my brother.Jeremy was in the middle.then suddenly Claudia said she wanted to go back by texi or bus.Jeremy shouted no,but she didnt listen,she walked a few steps away.At first i didnt wana stop her and wanter to let her go alone.but at last,I shouted to her and said Dont be stupid! if anything happens to you its my fault.she came back and sat again,jeremy was still in the middle.i asked Jeremy to go away for awhile because i wanted to talk to her.because for sure if none of us stop the fight,huh,plus all 3 of us is in the same class.if one of use especially me and claudia fight,that class would be dead.and again i gave up,i said sorry even its not my fault.i have to admit that she is kinda like a spoilt brat~well no one is PERFECT right?even i have anger issues...5 minutes later we were done talking,Jeremy was about 10 steps away from us waiting,sitting,i looked back and smile at him.haha,he smile too and shows me a thumb up.he came back to us,relieved~
'den my brother came,as we enter the car,he told me that mum's mad,i replied'i know'~
den i ask my brother if he wanted to watch Green Lantern,after a while bodek2 and getting myself in more trouble,he said okay as long as im the one who's paying,i was like fine,as long as i get to watch the movie.I called claudia's mum to inform her that i'll be sending claudia home a lil late and claudia asked me to put a lie into it by saying my mum is there with us,huh~ i felt really bad,tambah gik dosa ku menipu mak orahg,but she insisted,well skip the boring part dash3~~~
the movie finish around 8.40pm,we sent claudia home first and i apologise to her mum.den sent jeremy home,den we home with my bro.....thank God mum's asleep.but the next day she wasnt talking to me.i said im sorry.and i think its because we used too much petrol for the car going here and there.huh..i seriously need to stop thinking of myself and others too much and getting myself in trouble,huh3~ mum dont worry,after spm i'll work and help u way the car petrol aite?that's y she dont like me going out with my friends because she knew that in the end,i have to send them all home and waste the car fuel.well she's kinda calculative when i comes to my friends.she herself didnt see how she spends her money going overseas.what's rm10 worth for petrol and thousands or ringgit going overseas? she dont get it,but well,she the adult,tunduk jela~amen~
claudia and me
me and jeremy


WHY?

What started it? What really went wrong?
Was our family's love, not as strong?
It's hard to believe, my mother's the one who's gone and choose the wrong way
Every night I cry and think about what went wrong
I ask, why she's gone, why she left DAD, why she's not here WITH dad
Like a waterfall, my eyes fill up, pouring tear after tear
Sometimes I wish my life were different, in a much better way
Hoping that god would give me, just one good day
I think to myself and ask god, why? Why isn't my life so great?
I guess he says back to me, that it's just my eternal fate
Maybe someone out there will hear my cry
Praying for me, helping me get by
Mom, I still love you, even though you left dad for another
But I still need you, I need you Mom without any third party
i only want my dad,not the dad you want me to call
why cant you just understand me,why mum?

is it a sin mum?

father's day

MESSAGE TO DAD ON FATHERS DAY 
Dear lord , we lost our father,
A short time ago.
We are all still hurting inside,
Like he would only know.

We have our personal memories,
which we will never share.
Because that cherished moment,
Came with a lot of love and care.

He knows that we all love him still,
And we still really care.
But we cannot tell him anymore,
As he is sat there in his chair.

So lord, please take care of him,
He was the only one i had.
It is on days like Fathers Day,
I really miss , MY DAD
its like he's dead,but no
he's pretty much alive
but 
away..

Friday, May 20, 2011

heart broken

Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever.


You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.


I cried today... not because I miss you... or even wanted you... but because I realized I'm gonna be all right without you.



Sad isn't it? How no matter what you do or say to me... when you come running back... when you need me again... I'll be here... right here waiting for you, I'll take you back... no questions asked. Sad isn't it?

I think its time I let you go... and that is hard to do because part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life.

im just a normal person,and needs to be treated as your girl not your normal friends who only says hi

is it so hard to love me back?

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Grand plan for our life based on age



•    In my teens, I’ll get into a good college or get a good job.
•    In my early twenties, my career will start to take off.
•    By my mid-twenties, I will meet the person of my dreams.
•    In my thirties, I will be married and have 2.2 beautiful children.
•    In my forties, I’ll be running the company for which I’ve been working.
•    In my fifties, I’ll reflect back on my life and my grown children and smile.
•    In my sixties, I’ll retire and travel the world.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Get use to dissapointments

the one you love most give you more pain in the ass
the more you ask the less you get
the less you expect the better..
the more you nag,the worst you get.
the thing i want,is the thing i didnt get
dissapointments,i hate you
is it so hard to ask for compasion?
i love,i tried,i did,n now its almost done
now tell what wrong i have done.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Aloha

HOW amazing that place is,by just looking at the pictures makes you feel calm
the beaches,the sun,the walking path,all seem interesting,not to say the sexy babes there :p
maybe one day my brothers and myself will be celebrating mum's wedding,but for sure,the place i wanna be is the BEACH...
LOOKING at some hot dudes,exposing myself to the sun,playing volleyball with a few strangers
talking about life which is way different than the culture here in malaysia,looking at ways,manners and the way they response.
NOW,that would be a life which i'll treasure the most
NEXT,REDANG island looks alike to the beach in waikiki,hawaii...the see through aquatic  life,phuh! now that is cool!!
for couples,a great place to be,holdings hands...walking on the sandy path,looking at other guys,checking out chicks with big boobs,well dats just some idea~
I WANA GO THERE SO BAD!

Friday, April 8, 2011

my HEART tells me something bad is gona happen after ....ect

7 THINGS that might happen..i've been thinking about it for a long time


1. wont talk much
2.always tired
3.busy
4.sooner or later,might lost contact
5.months later..might be seeing somebody else
6.HEARTBROKEN!AGAIN!!
7.collect the broken pieces,be TOUGH and show that ur still be able to STAND
sometimes its true,if you love somebody so much,till it can break your heart,u might aswell let it go
a guy wont know

anna

There's always a first time in doing crazy stuff,its probaly not worth it
but,its worth to try
11.21pm 8.04.2011
getting ready for the party

WHILE MUM'S OUT,THE HOUSE WENT WILD



Mum's gone for two weeks
guys in the house looking for chicks
while i myself invited friends to stay over
they smoke and drink
all but not me
because,i dont think its interesting
guys in the house invited to go partying
all i wana go! i wana go!
come to think of it,im under age!
that will have to wait,but break the rules?????????????@#$@$%<!!!
i stay at home not daring to go

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

My REGRETS and ACHIEVEMENTS plus SATISFACTION

After moving to a place i never thought would ruin myself,in the pass i have regreted alot of stuffs
the first thing i regret is having my mum and dad to separate,then,2010 i was in science stream class and when i shifted to KUCHING,SRWK,i changed to arts stream because my mum asked me to stay on a save side,she was worrried that i wont pass my exam this coming november 2011,and so i changed to arts stream.
When i was still in science stream me and my friends always assumed that arts stream was a bad class,full of naughty kids,have a low education level,and opportunity cost to enter univesity is low.But now,since i changed to arts stream,it wasnt that bad,but surely my ambition to me 
after it all in ended here's a special quote
a doctor is GONE,so now,im thinking of having my own business,my dad told me he could help invest some money,and hopefully he will.How much i miss being in science class,but im never missing additional maths,because i suck at it,and its the reason why my mum ask me to flunk to arts stream.After gawai holiday 2010,i was already in my new school,which is at SMK JALAN ARANG,it looked like a private school,but it wasn't.THe discipline was wow!strict,but i can live with it.THIS YEAR(2011) its my senior year,i was very comfy with the school surroundings and the students around.I made history for myself in that school,hopefully a page of myself in the school yearbook,and why.?because i had beat the school's 2 years in a row female athlete!from what is see,she wasn't happy about it,before beating her up,and pushing her fame,we were *friends*and after that and that,she kinda hate me,if she sees me,she'll pretend im not there,or look somewhere else,well screw her,i dont care.beyond that,i took a lot of row in the school's activities.somehow being transfered into many different school,i like it here in smk jalan arang.not so say happy but,i have lots of good friend and not say only chicks,but also lots of guy friend,its nice being around them,the joke with them will also be on.gossiping a part of all my girlfriends,well as long we dont hurt anyone dats aite,haha,well,regrets can turn good sometimes.WHO KNEW!! im good in drawing! my bff told me i have a good imagination and she is CLAUDIA LIENNY KUEH,A very nice girl to be with.http://www.poetryoflife.com/life-goes-on/
me and claudia
AND NOT TO FORGET TWO OF MY OTHER LOVELY FRIENDS,ELLISA N MELODY
from the left,claudia,centre,melody,right.ellisa
those girls make my life worth living^^for
and above all,the guy whom i LOVE
REX RANDELL FONSEKA

hope u guys love my story for now
its not bullshit! its real for sure^^

PISSED

EVERYTHING was ready,i was all in my school uniform,my school shoes and my bag is already waiting in the car,Since 5.50am,i tried to wake my lil brother,i ask him nicely,kindly,patiently.but nothing works.I was starting to piss,i pulled his blanket,pinch his butt,and he cried and said NO SCHOOL! i was like! who told u that there's no school! its a thursday!!!no school?! time passed,and it was already 6.30am,my class starts at 6.50,in the end,i  ran to his room n tried make him take his bath and go to school,and it didnt work! i wish mum were here!!! my babysitter cant stay to take care of  him,and we cant leave him alone,i gave up,so i told her that i wont be able to go to school,and she needs to make to 2 letters for my form teacher n the principle for not going to school and extra class!AFTER my babysitter left to work,and i didnt wana look at his face,or talk to him.HE tried hard to talk to me,asking me if he can switch on the tv,play his gameboy,or even eat sweet stuffs.ALL i did was,*IGNORE HIM*

Saturday, March 26, 2011

ANGEL


GIVE ME STRENGTH IN WHAT I DO
N COURAGE TO CONTINUE A
PERFECT RELATIONSHIP

MY lil CRUSH!!!!

It sounds as if you have a crush on someone other than your boyfriend and this often happens.
Sometimes the person you have a crush on is totally oblivious to how you feel and crushes are strange things!
Most of us, if we were honest ,might admit to having a 'crush' on someone at one time in our lives and the good news is that it usually goes away! 
Crushes are difficult to explain - they usually just happen.
Best thing is, if you are really fond of your boyfriend and don't want to hurt him, is to distance yourself from the object of your crush. Try to avoid situations where your in sight of him.
Objects of crushes are often someone elses partner, have non of the attributes which we usually are attracted to and seldom does anything come of it.
Try to see all the good things that attracted you to your boyfriend in the first place. If you really have come to the point where you and your boyfriend aren't as happy as you were the crush won't solve that.
Try to keep busy and away from the other person because crushes really don't usually ever come to anything. You might look back on it soon and cringe! 

Sunday, March 20, 2011

happy birthday love

I want to say I love you on your birthday,Though love is something you don't want from me.Things didn't go so well when I last said it,And so I'll keep it silent in my heart. But how the words reverberate within me!A song that I must struggle not to sing,A music I must dance to without motion,A poem that I must never read aloud. Your wishes are a wall I would not scale,Yet won't abandon, loathe to leave behind.I cannot have, and cannot bear to lose you,And so I send you this in my despair.

i love my boyfriend

I met you and I saw such wonderful person
Then I became your best friend, and had a reason…a reason
That touched me and walked me through life with you…. I walked
And began to have these
Feelings, they were unexplainable and sealed my heart...
That I knew this friendship will never fall apart, and at that moment I said, "I know deep Inside me I will be with you forever”, as we go through ups and downs
We will always be strong together….you made me realize who I really am
And have showed me the right way…and I know I’ll do my everything to
Make our relationship stay...You’re my joy and my everything the heart to 
keep me alive….I love you... Now and always and forever until I die.
Believe me when I say this but its true….. My love for you
Is everything……, without you I’m nothing and I don’t know what I would do without you, all I know is that my heart would be torn apart or may?
Cause me to do suicide and many crazy things…... and for that reason that 
would make me have unpleasant feelings, you know I’m here for… as you are
for me…and I believe that you’ll never leave me or ever try to hurt me…you
do whatever to have a smile on my face and make me happy…and that I am
so thankful for being everything to me…I know sometimes I don’t know how
to return the way you are with me… but trust me I try my best to keep the
Stress from hurting me...I always hold it all inside and I’m sorry for what
I’ve done wrong I mean it deep inside…. I know my love for you is like a
song, a song that will always play for you...And doesn’t have any
regrets…and feels so lucky to have you…
And I always thank God every moment of my life…and like I said my love...
No matter what happens I'll always and forever love you till the end of time..!Rex Randell Fonseka!muahhx3!


smile

The value of a smile is priceless, yet it is the cheapest, easiest, most rewarding and most sincere gift to anyone that crosses your path. A smile makes a person's day, anybody's day even a stranger's day. A smile is infectious. Start infecting people with your smile today.
A smile is nature's best antidote for discouragement. It brings rest to the weary, sunshine to those who are sad, and hope to those who are hopeless and defeated.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

babies!!




those tiny creatures r adorable!! look at me with those two angels!!!
but WHY do people wana abort them or abuse them.??
man,im sure u guys know that lots of babies r abandoned
PITY rite.?
see how cruel humans can be,n no wonder there r rumors bout the end of the world is coming..aha
HOW CAN US HUMANS CHANGE FOR THE GOOD INSTEAD OF THE BAD.?
CAN WE CHANGE.?
by the time it would be ALL TO LATE

Friday, February 4, 2011

not so much for my Butterfly poetry

Some might wonder what a butterfly, drinks. 
Butterfly, shall we let them know, we became 
intoxicated, as we sipped the nectar of life. 

As my butterfly and I floated through the 
wonders of earth, I wish we could share the 
joy we found, with all of this planet. 

Butterfly, shall we always be together? 
Butterfly, I do not mean, just here on 
earth, I mean until the stars stop shinning. 
Butterfly, I mean, until there is no moon... 
no anything, but my Butterfly and I. 

Butterfly...I think that we will. Butterfly, 
I believe that we were meant to be.




done

Go ahead mom 
take another drink 
don't worry 
I can take another hit
another slap 
but can you face the fact 
I'm not a little girl any more 
I will hit back
~Anna 


just a short poem


Under the rain,
Under the sun,
In the passage of the wind;
But I moved on and about,
Monstrously devouring
Every fellow creature I found;
Yet, wretchedly remained
Always hungry,
Always anxious,
Always wandering!"